I did it because a bunch of people kind of maneuvered me into it until I didn't have a way out. [He considers this, then amends it to:] Plus I thought it was the only way to help my mom. It might not have been, but that's what I decided on then.

And it almost got me killed because I pissed some people off beforehand, and one of them tried to use the opportunity of me not looking like me to get people who hated the other guy to kill me, meaning him.

You know. That kind of shit.