[It's only as the anger is draining out into a bone-deep feeling of emptiness that Cassel realizes he was angry. Not at Zane, but at Barron. He hasn't allowed himself to feel angry at Barron since he thought he was lost forever, but now he is again.]
[He's very, very angry.]
[He turns his face back into Zane's shoulder, annoyed and confused. What he wanted was what he saw on television, reruns of crap sitcoms, a big brother who'd sit and listen to your stupid problems and sound like he knew what he was talking about and worry about you some. Instead he got Philip, who didn't care, and Barron, who'd stab him in the back in a second, but . . . sort of cared despite that.]
[Why is Zane listening when his family never did?]
spam
[He's very, very angry.]
[He turns his face back into Zane's shoulder, annoyed and confused. What he wanted was what he saw on television, reruns of crap sitcoms, a big brother who'd sit and listen to your stupid problems and sound like he knew what he was talking about and worry about you some. Instead he got Philip, who didn't care, and Barron, who'd stab him in the back in a second, but . . . sort of cared despite that.]
[Why is Zane listening when his family never did?]
[His words come out muffled.]
I love him, but I hate him too.