[He means it. Appreciates it. Some people don't think about it - she does. She can see the finite cracks that exist in him even now, and while once that would have terrified him, now it just makes things easier.]
He has. He's . . . working on her. [Cassel knows enough about Arkin that he doesn't envy Elena at all right now. Then again, he doesn't envy Elena at all ever.]
I let Zane do it. Go into my head, push and pull around in there. Months and months ago. That was the first time that it ever felt okay. And now he's the only one who's allowed, whenever he wants or thinks he should.
[Clearing his throat, he runs his fingers through his hair. And then he says the last part.]
It was. Situationally appropriate. Because there was a girl named Lila, and I turned her into a cat. For three years. [A slow blink.] It was . . . very. Complicated. But that's where my mind went, when she pushed me back there. Or maybe she did it on purpose. I don't know.
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[He means it. Appreciates it. Some people don't think about it - she does. She can see the finite cracks that exist in him even now, and while once that would have terrified him, now it just makes things easier.]
He has. He's . . . working on her. [Cassel knows enough about Arkin that he doesn't envy Elena at all right now. Then again, he doesn't envy Elena at all ever.]
I let Zane do it. Go into my head, push and pull around in there. Months and months ago. That was the first time that it ever felt okay. And now he's the only one who's allowed, whenever he wants or thinks he should.
[Clearing his throat, he runs his fingers through his hair. And then he says the last part.]
It was. Situationally appropriate. Because there was a girl named Lila, and I turned her into a cat. For three years. [A slow blink.] It was . . . very. Complicated. But that's where my mind went, when she pushed me back there. Or maybe she did it on purpose. I don't know.