There's no way around it, no way to stop it, no swallowing it back down. He screams without reservation, immediately, almost choking on it. Both hands are gripping the arms of the chair now and he presses back as far as he can in the restraints, tries twisting the other way when that doesn't work, mindless. He tried to imagine it. He couldn't have. He's never felt anything like this, he's never been at the mercy of someone like Chris or Cassel. Not really.
But he did try, once, to prepare for it. His will is strong, and he can't silence himself, but he shoves as though away from his own body. He does know how to manage pain, he's been shot before, he's been on the receiving end of several of Goodkat's training sessions. Just not like this. He shoves and tries to get away from it, tries to find something good to focus on, something that will keep him sane until it stops or he blacks out.
He goes to Lindsey even in his head; it's appropriate, he'll think later. He's doing this to protect her.]
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There's no way around it, no way to stop it, no swallowing it back down. He screams without reservation, immediately, almost choking on it. Both hands are gripping the arms of the chair now and he presses back as far as he can in the restraints, tries twisting the other way when that doesn't work, mindless. He tried to imagine it. He couldn't have. He's never felt anything like this, he's never been at the mercy of someone like Chris or Cassel. Not really.
But he did try, once, to prepare for it. His will is strong, and he can't silence himself, but he shoves as though away from his own body. He does know how to manage pain, he's been shot before, he's been on the receiving end of several of Goodkat's training sessions. Just not like this. He shoves and tries to get away from it, tries to find something good to focus on, something that will keep him sane until it stops or he blacks out.
He goes to Lindsey even in his head; it's appropriate, he'll think later. He's doing this to protect her.]