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Cassel Sharpe. ([personal profile] patheticvillain) wrote2015-05-16 04:01 pm

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[Cassel's in his room, rearranging his drawer of scraps in some order discernible only to him. Ilia is perched on a high shelf, his eyes narrowed and tail twitching, disturbed by the commotion and looking ready to jump down onto Cassel's shoulders at any moment. As he rummages, Cassel addresses the camera; the moment he turns towards it, a bruise slides into view on his left temple, light and mottled black. He seems not to notice it.]

A few things. First of all, if anybody who's not all Admiral-ed up has a problem with the power outages, I think - I think I can make flashlights and lamps that don't need to be powered. [He's speaking specifically to Morgana here, but he doesn't know everybody's hangups, either, so he's leaving it open to the Barge as a whole.]

Second of all, has anybody actually gotten anywhere with the ship? Steering it or anything? Because this seems like it's getting kind of. Critical. [As Dean so astutely pointed out.]

Last thing - I know nobody cares right now, but we still need staff for the gym. At least one more person. If you feel like going slightly less stir-crazy while we're marooned in the middle of nowhere, apply now.
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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-17 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Who?

[Then it clicks, and it's such a blank surprise that it actually shocks him out of being pissed for a second.]

The new guy? That little asshole?
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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-17 05:08 pm (UTC)(link)

[He doesn't get it.]

What the fuck are you sticking up for him for?

[Then he does get it, he thinks: Anya. Anya is friends with Cassel. Mickey scowls, eyes darkening. Family is one thing, but that's not fair, he thinks. Pietro doesn't get to do whatever the fuck he wants just because Anya's declared him off-limits, severed heads or no. He wouldn't stop someone from going after Mandy if she'd done something to earn it.

It doesn't occur to him that Cassel might have been the one to earn it.]

Fuck no. Asshead needs to learn that ain't the way shit goes up here.

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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-17 05:18 pm (UTC)(link)

He hit you? You hit him first?

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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-17 05:45 pm (UTC)(link)

Are you fucking...

[Kidding? But he does, then, see the shape of it, and he trails off into silence. Not the good, comfortable kind.]

You're not.

[Why do you care? Cassel had snarled, deflecting for himself, not for Pietro. It's not the first time this has happened.]

What the fuck is wrong with you?

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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-17 08:04 pm (UTC)(link)

[Mean though he knows Cassel can be sometimes, that laugh sounds more like Ian to him. Ha ha, okay, calm down, psycho. Like it's crazy that Mickey is upset. He is upset, it's fucking upsetting, but he doesn't know any words to explain how or why. Don't? Stop? Hasn't he said them before? Has he?]

Grow the fuck up, Cassel.

[He knows simultaneously that lashing out is probably the wrong move and that he has no idea what the fuck else to do. He can't take care of this. You can't even take care of yourself, Zane whispers in his head, as right now as he was then.]

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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-17 11:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Fuck.

[Big surprise: he fucked up. Mickey is no genius, but he doesn't need to be to have seen that that would go badly. He should go after him, he thinks -- but something, some fear or indecision, paralyzes him where he sits. He's not going to do any better in person. In person, he might wind up hitting Cassel himself.

When he does eventually pull up roots, that's what it winds up being for. He can't take care of Cassel, or his family, or himself. He runs again and again into problems he can't solve, can't help, makes fucking worse just by opening his mouth. The only thing he can think to pull out of himself, maybe the only good in him at all right now, is that he can find something better to hit.

Or at least something else. By the next time Cassel sees him, he'll be sporting some fresh bruises of his own.]
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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-18 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
[It's not the same for Mickey as it is for Cassel. He doesn't relish his war wounds; he takes no pleasure from the pain once it's been inflicted. For him, it's all about the adrenaline, and now that it's past all he can do is feel hollow and achy.

He's trying to get it back at the punching bag when Cassel comes in. His knuckles are bandaged under their wraps, but he's still hitting hard and fast as a runaway train. He doesn't like the pain, but there's a certain grim satisfaction in the way it lances through his hands with every smack of his fists against the bag. It's real. It's solid. Maybe that's what really drives him into all these fights: with all the problems chasing each other endlessly in his head, there's something about being able to hit something heavy with his hands and hear it crack.

The sound of the door comes to him only distantly, but he stops anyway, fighting to catch his breath, wiping the sting of sweat away from his eyes and the cuts on his face. He turns, spots Cassel, and goes still, expression hunted and guilty.]


What?

[It doesn't connect for him just yet what the look of betrayal is for.]</small
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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-18 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[Mickey figures it out then -- what Cassel thinks happened -- and shakes his head. He moves away from the bag and goes to sit down, straddling one of the benches.]

I got in a fight.

[He starts unwrapping his hands with a veil of disinterest, like it's just something that needs doing. It is, but he also wants Cassel to see. Underneath the wraps the bandages around each fist are mottled, a fresher, darker red where they hit the bag, but brown and rusty elsewhere with the lingering stain of yesterday's blood. Maybe not the nicest thing to look at, but proof in their own way: he didn't do this to give Cassel a taste of his own medicine or to make some kind of point. He gets into fights. It's what he does.]

You should see the other guy.
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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-19 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
[Mickey tenses slightly as Cassel comes near, watching him with shadowed eyes until he settles down next to him. Then he settles down again, too, grateful for the compromise. He shifts, bringing his leg over so they're both facing the same way.]

I guess.

[He shrugs. He and Tig had both walked away at the end of it, which means that it's far from as bad as it could have been. He finishes with the wraps and tosses them carelessly aside, then flexes his fingers with a grimace. Maybe the bag hadn't been the best idea today.]
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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-19 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
What the fuck does one thing have to do with the other?

[He glances at him out of the corner of his eye, his confusion genuine. He'd hit Tig, not Cassel. It had gotten all that extra energy out, yeah, but that's all.

Then again, there's the other fact at hand: that he was never really angry with Cassel to begin with. Not angry. That had come when he couldn't handle any of the rest. He frowns down at his hands and curls them into loose fists, his voice going quieter and less sharp.]


I don't get why you do that shit.
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[personal profile] americasdirtiest 2015-05-19 03:03 am (UTC)(link)
That's not good, Cassel.

[Now it's Mickey's turn to sound raw, and more than he means to, as well. He's briefly relieved that Cassel isn't looking to see the flash of pain that he knows passes across his face with it. He bites it back, covers it up with a sigh, rubs at his eyes like he can push the feelings back inside if he just tries hard enough.

But then, that's really his fucking problem, right? They're all locked up in him, lodged under his throat and in the pit of his stomach, growing sharper and harder to manage every time he gets into something like this. Each and every time: he lets someone in, lets them in until he has no choice but to... give a shit, his mind supplies, unwilling to go near the obvious word. Until he has no choice but to give a shit, and then they lay something at his feet that he can barely even understand, let alone help with. Let alone take care of.

He presses the heels of his hands harder into his eye sockets, then lets them drop again once he sees stars.]


I don't-- [He bites his lip.] Do you-- do you think you need help or something?

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