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private } chris

Hey.

private } vesper

sorry i scared you

spam } open. eeeeesh.

[Cassel spends the weekend and the first couple of days after Elena's outed pretty much just hiding in his room. He'll open the door to some people right away, some after a little persuasion, and completely ignore others.]

[After that, he starts picking up his shifts in the gym again, although he tends not to do much looking people in the eye. He can also be found scuttling away from social interaction in the dining hall.]

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Yeah.

[He meets James's eyes this time, even though it's a lie. Or - not a lie, a prediction. He will be okay. Right now, he can at least hold himself together.]

[The thing is that he doesn't understand what's just happened. His father so rarely held him that all his signals are crossed. He thinks again of Zane, of Vesper, of Barbara, and he looks at James in quietly pleased confusion.]

Are you? Don't lie.

[James speaks a language reliant on predictions; he understands. The question finds his mouth curling at one corner, a wry, almost-smile. Is he all right? It's a good question.]

Will be, [he finally says, and sets himself down on the bed beside Cassel, hands linking between his knees.] Suppose that will have to be good enough.

[His mouth curls a little harder, and it is a smile now, even if it's not entirely pleasant. He has a meanness to him that comes through even when he doesn't mean it to.] Didn't bite you too badly, did I?

[Yes. It will have to be good enough. There's no such thing as an easy fix, especially not for something like this. A loss of control. It's not right.]

[James is allowed time.]

Not too badly. [He nearly smiles, although it doesn't quite happen. He appreciates the mean.] Next time, give me stitches.

[That is entirely genuine. He deserved them.]

If there's a next time, [he drawls,] that's a promise.

[Elena deserves them more. If, somehow, this is allowed to happen again, he's going to find her first thing.

Sitting quietly for another moment, James pats Cassel's knee as he rises; it's subconscious, but something his father used to do to him. A silent chin up and keep going.]

If you haven't come out by the end of the week, I'm coming back to drag you out.

[He'd like to say there won't be. But there's no way of knowing, especially here. He loves the Barge, it's his home, but there's always someone angry. Always someone trying to get revenge, even if it's misplaced, and floods and breaches and ports. No way of predicting.]

[It's times like these that Cassel really does hate what he is, for how it can be used against other people.]

[He looks up with a touch of surprise when James gets up to go. The gesture of comfort is brusque and shocking in its unfamiliarity. This is what fathers do, he thinks, and ducks his head.]

I'll come out before then. I promise.

Good.

[He's not one for sentimentality and reassurances; no doubt they would both balk at it. So he doesn't linger, doesn't ask if Cassel is sure he's all right, doesn't ask if he needs anything. He pats his knee, stands, and heads for the door.

James doesn't know if that's what fathers do, but it's what he does. They live on a basis of finding what's enough.]

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