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patheticvillain) wrote2013-09-30 06:30 pm
patheticvillain) wrote2013-09-30 06:30 pm
Entry tags:
- anger management,
- bouquet of cats,
- conditional trust,
- dad. james dad.,
- don't wanna live in fear & loathing,
- dramatic yet unhelpful,
- eerie salvatore similarities,
- elena does not dazzle him,
- elena is an emotion worker,
- emotions are for twisting,
- feelings how do they work,
- goddamnit all these shenanigans,
- gotta get some vervain,
- guiltface mcgee,
- help i have lost myself again,
- instead of constantly exploding,
- king of poor life choices,
- lila & the cage,
- lilaaaaaa,
- makes me kinda nervous to say so,
- productive member of society or not,
- seriously though how feelings,
- so that trust thing,
- super accountant strikes again,
- the neediest child,
- this is the angry cat,
- unconditional trust,
- unresolved family trauma,
- whoa there pickle,
- zane understaaaands me
twenty-five ➢ private + spam
private } chris
Hey.
private } vesper
sorry i scared you
spam } open. eeeeesh.
[Cassel spends the weekend and the first couple of days after Elena's outed pretty much just hiding in his room. He'll open the door to some people right away, some after a little persuasion, and completely ignore others.]
[After that, he starts picking up his shifts in the gym again, although he tends not to do much looking people in the eye. He can also be found scuttling away from social interaction in the dining hall.]
Hey.
private } vesper
sorry i scared you
spam } open. eeeeesh.
[Cassel spends the weekend and the first couple of days after Elena's outed pretty much just hiding in his room. He'll open the door to some people right away, some after a little persuasion, and completely ignore others.]
[After that, he starts picking up his shifts in the gym again, although he tends not to do much looking people in the eye. He can also be found scuttling away from social interaction in the dining hall.]
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It sounds stupid as fuck because I lived with her for eighteen years, but I didn't really...know her all that well. I mean. Once Dad died, that was the longest we'd ever spent alone in each other's company before. And we didn't really get along.
At all.
It was fucked up.
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I'm sorry.
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But I mean. We're just so fucking different. With my dad dying, it was different. I knew my dad, I spent time with him.
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It's hard to say someone's family, to feel like that, if you don't know them.
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[Lila didn't know her mom much at all, either.]
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Dad was screwing them. Like, all of them. Mom must have known, I just didn't know if it mattered to her or not.
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It was like, normal or whatever. She'd come home the next morning and everything would be fine. They never fought.
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My mom screwed Zacharov all the time. Dad was so pissed he pulled a game on her. It was a mess. But that didn't feel real either because he never said anything. She didn't even know he knew until after he died.
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They did love each other, I think. I really...want to think that.
What kind of game?
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It . . . he took this heirloom and switched it out for a fake. A really good fake, but a fake. It almost got her killed when Zacharov found out, and I had to save her ass.
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Man, why are our parents so fucked up?
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You ever think what they'd be like if they got to come here?
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I guess I was thinking when they were younger, like us. But maybe it wouldn't have made a difference.
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. . . I still want her to be happy, is the thing. How fucked up is that? I don't even think she knows what happy is.
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I'm.
I'm kind of freaking out, I don't feel like a better person.
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Thanks. For, you know.
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