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[patheticvillain]

[Cassel's in his room, rearranging his drawer of scraps in some order discernible only to him. Ilia is perched on a high shelf, his eyes narrowed and tail twitching, disturbed by the commotion and looking ready to jump down onto Cassel's shoulders at any moment. As he rummages, Cassel addresses the camera; the moment he turns towards it, a bruise slides into view on his left temple, light and mottled black. He seems not to notice it.]

A few things. First of all, if anybody who's not all Admiral-ed up has a problem with the power outages, I think - I think I can make flashlights and lamps that don't need to be powered. [He's speaking specifically to Morgana here, but he doesn't know everybody's hangups, either, so he's leaving it open to the Barge as a whole.]

Second of all, has anybody actually gotten anywhere with the ship? Steering it or anything? Because this seems like it's getting kind of. Critical. [As Dean so astutely pointed out.]

Last thing - I know nobody cares right now, but we still need staff for the gym. At least one more person. If you feel like going slightly less stir-crazy while we're marooned in the middle of nowhere, apply now.

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[patheticvillain]

Sometimes you can't fix all of it.

[tucky]

How long do you wanna stay here?

[patheticvillain]

Honestly?

[tucky]

Yeah. I been told I'm gonna know when the right time to go home is, and that it's gonna happen someday. Now I wanna know what you think.

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[patheticvillain]

I don't ever want to go home.

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[tucky]

[She looks a little bit relieved at that, and she smiles; she can't help it.]

Yeah?

So if I feel that way too - and I'm not saying I do - that'd be okay? It wouldn't make me a bad warden?

Because I don't want to never go back. I just think I would maybe not want to stay there.

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[patheticvillain]

Why would it make you a bad warden? Jesus. Iris doesn't ever want to leave and she's, like, the best warden here.

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[tucky]

I was told Iris would leave someday, too. Only not by Iris herself, so I wasn't so sure it was true information.

Last month I thought I might want to leave. But then I really thought about it, and I don't think I do. I don't wanna totally give up my real home, but I can't totally give up the Barge, neither. I wanna have both, I think.

Is that what you want?

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[patheticvillain]

I don't ever want to go back to my home because it sucks there. I can be put in prison forever just because of what I am, and my mom's a crazy person. So no, I don't want to go back home ever.

I do want to make a home somewhere else. But I never want to leave the Barge behind for good.

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[tucky]

Sounds like we got similar ideas, you and me.

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[patheticvillain]

Yeah. I just can't believe anybody was trying to convince you this isn't a place you can stay.

[He's kind of pissed about it, actually.]

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[tucky]

She said it ain't meant to be.

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[patheticvillain]

Who did?

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[tucky]

Uh... Elena.

Don't go yelling at her, okay? 'Cause she meant well, I think. She's a friend of mine.

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[patheticvillain]

She's a friend of mine, too. Kind of.

[Not really.]

But she doesn't know what she's talking about.

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[tucky]

Well... I'm a warden now, and that means I'm supposed to be able to trust in my own opinions. And right now I think my opinion is that you're right.

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[patheticvillain]

That's right. It doesn't matter what I think. It matters what you think.

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[tucky]

Nah, it matters what you think too. That just ain't the only thing that matters.

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[patheticvillain]

. . . Oh. Seriously?

[He doesn't hear that a lot.]

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[tucky]

Why not?

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[patheticvillain]

I don't know, it just.

Nevermind.

It's cool that I was able to help you come to this awesome realization, though.

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[tucky]

... Are you being sarcastic?

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[patheticvillain]

Only like 25% sarcastic.

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[tucky]

... Okay.

Well, I meant what I said, about your opinion mattering. You sounded surprised. You got low self-esteem or something? It's okay if you do 'cause I think I do sometimes too, a little bit.

So what kind of home do you wanna have off the Barge? Do you know yet?

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[patheticvillain]

[He. Why is she so honest. He doesn't get it. Help.]

I don't know. In a city somewhere, some version of New York. That's what I'm thinking now, anyway. What about you?