thirteen ➢ private + voice

[patheticvillain]

private | kon

I have a question about what Charles did to you. [A beat.] I mean. For you.

public | voice

[He shouldn't be making this post, probably, no matter how curious he is. He's been weird about his mother lately, and if she starts talking to him he's not sure what he'll do.]

[So he compromises: voice, which is a tell in itself, when he could be using video (he's hiding), but to his credit it doesn't shake, and he doesn't sound afraid. Maybe Sam's out there, or Daneca.]

The Admiral's fucking with us again, I note. If anybody wants to catch me up on the news from Jersey, it's not like I'm doing anything. Otherwise I'll just watch everyone else be super uncomfortable.

private | text to zane + chris | later

today was complete bullshit and fuck this boat i have snacks and my door's open

the rules are no talking and whoever brings booze gets the most pillows

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[godsays]

You like him living more?

[bittersweeter]

Uh, yeah.

He thinks I don't, doesn't he?

[godsays]

I haven't asked him.

[bittersweeter]

I don't want Cassel dead. For the record. I did, with good reason. But it's pointless now, anyway.

[godsays]

Because he changed you.

[bittersweeter]

Because he left me in a cage for three years with his brother who didn't have the memory to do really basic things like clean it, or acknowledge my existence, or feed me.

[godsays]

His brother sounds pathetic to me.

[bittersweeter]

He is.

[godsays]

So what do you feel for Cassel?

[bittersweeter]

We were best friends when we were kids, you don't grow out of that. But right now, nothing.

Which is better than hate, probably.

[godsays]

I think he would rather have hate than nothing.

[bittersweeter]

Well, that's his choice, not mine.

[godsays]

Do you understand him?

[bittersweeter]

Highly doubtful.

I understand his mom is emotionally manipulative so feelings don't mean the same thing to him and he grew up feeling useless so he tried to make himself useful and that his brother and my cousin took advantage of that.

But understand Cassel? No, I doubt it.

[godsays]

It's a start.

I understand him. Is there anything you want to ask me?

[bittersweeter]

No. [Her head shakes, even though he can't see it.] Doesn't matter anymore.

[godsays]

I don't believe you.

[patheticvillain]

[ABJECT HORROR.]

What the hell!

[godsays]

I didn't lock it. You can see what she says.

[patheticvillain]

You're doing this for me.

[godsays]

No. I'm curious.

[patheticvillain]

I'm not - she's not an experiment.

[godsays]

No. You're important to me and I want to know.

[patheticvillain]

[Oh, fuck. He hesitates.]

Fine. Just don't . . . she's still important.

[godsays]

I know.