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[patheticvillain]

private | kon

I have a question about what Charles did to you. [A beat.] I mean. For you.

public | voice

[He shouldn't be making this post, probably, no matter how curious he is. He's been weird about his mother lately, and if she starts talking to him he's not sure what he'll do.]

[So he compromises: voice, which is a tell in itself, when he could be using video (he's hiding), but to his credit it doesn't shake, and he doesn't sound afraid. Maybe Sam's out there, or Daneca.]

The Admiral's fucking with us again, I note. If anybody wants to catch me up on the news from Jersey, it's not like I'm doing anything. Otherwise I'll just watch everyone else be super uncomfortable.

private | text to zane + chris | later

today was complete bullshit and fuck this boat i have snacks and my door's open

the rules are no talking and whoever brings booze gets the most pillows

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[bittersweeter]

Why wouldn't I be?

[patheticvillain]

Because you probably think I'm lying.

I'm not. I'm never coming back. Even if I manage to get out of here, I won't come back.

[bittersweeter]

[That is... not actually what she wants to hear. She's quiet for a while and when she speaks again her voice is soft.]

I'll tell Sam and Desi.

[patheticvillain]

. . . That's it?

[bittersweeter]

What were you expecting? Begging, pleading, crying, maybe? I'm not that stupid little girl your mother cursed anymore.

[It isn't hate in her voice though, it's utter indifference. Which is worse?] The only reason I'll pass along your plans is because Desi deserves it.

[And Lila's family takes care of their own, Desi Singer included.]

[patheticvillain]

[Indifference is far worse than hatred. Cassel allows himself to crumple slightly on the other end of the line, since she can see him anyway.]

[He had wanted her to beg, at the very least. He thinks he deserves that much.]

You've never been stupid.

[bittersweeter]

Fell for you, didn't I?

[patheticvillain]

Yeah, well, maybe my stupid's contagious.

[bittersweeter]

Lucky for me you're in space.

[Okay she's getting pissed off now. Which is the equivilent of throwing a switch on the amount of fucks she gives, which was negative six and is now about fifty thousand and three.]

So these people in prison are more important than the ones you have here? [i.e. her.]

[patheticvillain]

[There's a long pause. To lie or not to lie. There's no straightforward lie, which makes this intensely confusing.]

Yes. They are. That's - yes.

[bittersweeter]

Holy shit, did you just tell the truth?

[patheticvillain]

Surprise.

[bittersweeter]

You were a crap liar anyway.

You want me to tell Sam that too? [So sweet. Not only is he not coming back, oh, sad, but now Sam is basically worthless.]

[patheticvillain]

[He clears his throat. Ow.]

Tell him whatever you want. Hell, you can tell him I'm dead. Technically it's true.

[bittersweeter]

Who did it?

[patheticvillain]

Why do you give a shit.

[bittersweeter]

Because if you think for one second I'm going to lie to the man that continually saved my dad's life then you are a fucking moron.

I'll lie to Sam, because it'll make him feel better, but I'm not lying to your grandfather.

[patheticvillain]

You already know I'm a moron.

Brennans.

[bittersweeter]

[Pity they don't get Jersey news on the Barge because you can bet the highlight of the evening news will be how the entire Brennan family was murdered. Oops.]

And Barron?

[patheticvillain]

I don't know. We don't talk. And even if we did I wouldn't believe a word he said.

[bittersweeter]

So you're just never coming back, that's it?

[patheticvillain]

Wha do you want me to say? Psych? Now that we're talking I realize that I've made a terrible choice and I'm coming home as soon as I break out of space prison?

[His voice is raspy, his throat hurts, fuck.]

I get one ticket out of here. It's not going to be to you.

[bittersweeter]

Why not?

[patheticvillain]

It's complicated, and you won't believe me anyway. So don't worry about it.

[bittersweeter]

You... You are the biggest asshole I have ever met. Do you recognize that? I'm a sociopath and even I can see that you're a complete shit head.

Why am I the bad guy in your life story, Cassel? Why?